CHAPTER 60

Hi everyone.
I didn't write yesterday because I had nothing to write, I was home all through and nothing significant happened.

Today still, nothing significant really happened but I feel like talking to someone and ya'll seems to be the only peeps I can talk to.

Few years back I had a friend, a very close one, we talk about things and share things. She'll always come by during rehearsals, she was dating a crew member but we family.

After a while I noticed we ain't as close as we used to be and so I asked her why it was so, she replied me and said, “you've lost your sugar”.

As short as that sentence is it tore through my cardiac and went down my heart. Ever since then, once I see a cool friendship I do everything I can to hold on to it. I sometimes do things that ordinarily I might not have done just to keep it going and to make sure my sugar is always on, if possible I'll add some honey to it.

But the question is, does it really work? And even if it does how long does it last? How long can I keep putting my sugar on and if I were able to put it on for a long-term won't it be tiring to who I was putting it on for?

Personally I think it doesn't last long, i think as sweet as the sugar coupled with honey may be it definitely will get tiring. It's only a matter of time and perhaps, distance.

So in this case where there's no certainty that a relationship can be kept with the sugar in it as fresh as new, do we not love with all of our heart? Do we not care with all of our heart? Do we just live like we know it's gonna all go away someday and so we don't get connected? What exactly do one has to do to keep it going on both sides because sometimes it gets one sided a lot.

Sometimes I doubt the sacrifices count, perhaps it was all just a mistake that shouldn't have evolved, at this point am sure of nothing expect that am just a dude who's already getting weary of trying to keep up with my sugar.

Am getting weary of being the one who has to understand, the one who has to put my needs away for others, the only who's gat to act nice--- The only one. Most of all am getting tired of being myself because all that is just who I am, it's how am wired, how I was planed and constructed.

Am gonna stop here for today and just go back to reminiscing.

Ll: “I hate this sh*t this distance vomited not because it stinks non looks disgusting but because I love it, want it and bought it”

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Thanks for reading and peace.