AM HURTING ‘N’ CONFUSED.

Am hurting, i feel like am loosing her even when she says am not. The past hours has been really confusing and disturbing from yesterday till now.
Normally she won't keep things from me but now she does though she later tells me but that's after the deed is done. She doesn't resist me but know she does and yet she still says she has feelings for me.

Am confuse, there use to be this energy in her whenever she's coming over, she use to be extremely happy to see him but now it's like stale.

How do you keep something you love and want? Because currently I have no more ideas,no strategy, no tricks not even a plan. I feel like she ain't acting on her own, like there's a voice telling her what to do. That use to be my position,we rob minds, I give my opinion sometimes even a direction and she follows em but now I can't even feel the joy in our conversation anymore.

Did I do something wrong? Already asked but she said no. This use to be a mutual feeling but now it's feels one sided. There is to be this feeling as thick as a thick smoke from a burning house but now it feels lite like that of a vapour. It's was just the two of us but I think another has gotten into the picture. Could he be responsible? She said no. I feel like my friendly advice are coming back at me or maybe it's just distance since I haven't been visiting as usual.

Yesterday she told me something that nearly broke my heart but today she did some that broke it. For Christ sake I have feelings!. I feel something is wrong somewhere but she says nothing is wrong, I believe her but I'll believe her more if only she'll show it. I feel like am loosing her, feel like she's fading away, like my time with her is up.

They say love gives and so am giving my wants and needs away for hers, my only wish is that it doesn't go in vain and that someday she will do the same.

Am hurting and I feel confused.